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Friday, May 19, 2006

hmmms . hewwoooss !

x)
i haven't been blogging in like aeons..

and since i've got nothing better to do ..
i shall have a nice long update .

x)
my monitor's getting from bad to worse .
first it was the pink screen .
and now the display shrunk so its like pretty narrow with 2 pieces of black borders at the side ..
which makes it look pretty weird actually cause well .
i shall take a screen shot if not i don't think you'll understand . =|

okay fine . the screen shot doesn't work .
and it doesn't show how pathetic this monitor of mine is getting .
i seriously need a new monitor like really soon .
cause sch's like gonna start and stuffs and its gonna be like .
>.< if i have to work with this monitor .
my proportions and aligning and all of the blahblahbleebloo are gonna ~~screw~~ up really badly .

=| blah . ogey . so i'm starting to rant .
>.< sorry lah . i've been bottling up . lols.

hmmms . what else what else .
ohohoh !!!! how could i forget .
*laughs with glee !!
mumsiez got me tickets for xmen the last stand !
JUMPS . yay .
so we can use the remaining gv vouchers for other movies .

which means many many many more movies to comee !!

yayness . actually there's like plenty plenty PLENTY of movies i wanna catch !

lets see . *thinks . there's dvc . over the hedge . cars . voice . POISEDON !!
i'm contemplating slither and the nun . =|

i think slither's like this sequel to this UBERGROSS movie called SLUGS.
lol . anyone watched it before ?
fond memories of it i say .
despite it being gross .

hahahah . its story time !
i remember distinctively .
i was at my granny's place .
bored as ever and then i was talking to aestee !
=) my good ol' friend / ex schmate (who lives in the same block as i do) ..
on the phone !
and we were like switching channels . (psstt . my granny was asleeppp)
and we decided to brace ourselves for SLUGS !
which was on chn 5 .
it was SO disgusting that we couldn't go to sleep .
so guess what we did ? we talked till morning !
hahaha . fond memories .
we were on the phone for .. what . 6 hours ? almost almost !
it was so fun . x)
i miss doing stuffs like that with friend's but i don't really get chances like that anymore .
=)

time flies .
i'm gg 20 .
starting to AGE alr .
back aches and all tht .
i'm so old . =(

hahahas .
thinking back .
my life really has changed pretty much huh ?
from secondary sch life . which was the best still .
despite being screwed up and all tht .
those are the most precious parts of my life .
and from there to slacking around doing nth .
to going to bmc and getting to know ber and nee !
and from there . things got even worse .
i think i almost went beserk .
until i bumped into gaga one day at far east .
when she was with eugene and his ex gf . (am i right?)
and i was with . -.-" j o s e p h .
HAHAHA .
lets not go there ogey ?
i don't wanna be mean . >.<
and from there i started messaging PPP !
and something inside me ticked .
and then on i went back to church .
and to say something honestly .
my life really changed after .
and it was
good.
really .
i never regretted going back to church .
even though it meant all the storms i've been through ..
whilst being in church .
from getting closer to Him . and ppp . x)
to realising i fell for him.
which totally freaked me out .
and i felt my life going topsy turvy .
in a sense . at that point of time.
emphasis . at that point of time.
that was the last thing i wanted to happen .
due to circumstances and suchs .
hmm . which after tht .
lead to the major falling out between gaga and me .
which affected me so much i acutally locked dom outta my hse . =|
those were stormy days .
and aft tht . i thought things would get better really .
but it just got worse at port dickson .
haha . =|
but i guess .
it all takes time .
and now .
everything seems fine ..
but who knows ?
it might not be .
=)

i'm not implying anything .
but the truth is .
who doesn't carry a facade around these days ?
those masks that we put on every day .
to cover the hurt and the time .
to cover the mistakes we've done .
the hurt we've caused others .
the wounds that would not heal .
we smile to disguise the tears .
the agony ripping our hearts apart .
who knows ?
i know He knows . =)
but sigh .
we just tend to wanna put ourselves in charge don't we ?
even though we know we should always put Him first .
and let go . and just fall back on Him .

the world has changed so much in the recent years .
911 . tsunami . hurricane kat and all of that .
where is the love ? where is the love ..

sometimes i really don't understand .
i guess us beings are really unfathomable huh ?
like the recent cases in singapore .
from huang na to that china woman case .
i mean . how could they ?
*sighs .
life is so so precious .
and it is in fact .
so very short .
its full of regrets .
of lessons learnt .

everything happens for a reason .
i guess we all need to be reminded of that fact don't we ?
its just one of those things that we know yet we choose to evade .
to embrace life . and everything in it .
good times and bad .
life is full of opposites . =)
where there's good .
there's bad .
where's there's joy .
there's always pain .
=)
we've all got to learn to be thankful of what we have .
for everything around us .
the sky . the stars . the sun . the clouds .
every single thing around us .
should be treasured .
don't you think ?
=)

thank you God .. =)
for everything you've done .
for the lessons i've learnt in life .
i'm so thankful . =)
i really am ..

hmm ..
this is ..
hmm .
rare .
you don't really see me talking bout such sensitive topics really .
=)
so there .
my thoughts on life ..
i shall leave you with . =)

;elysium.
12:56:00 PM